Friday, December 25, 2009

Sweet Present

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!

Ok, I have major news to report but before I forget this I need to quote Stinx.

"Mom, you are beautiful"

"Mom, you are the princess and I am the King"

So on with the news!

Today I brought home the sweetest Christmas gift!!! A beautiful baby girl!!! As for now her nickname will be Bitta (that's a Stinx thing). She was born on Christmas Eve at 10:54 am. She weighed 7lbs 10 3/4 oz and was 19.5 inches long. The birth was really awesome! I still can't believe I did it! It was a great experience. It literally was the perfect hospital VBAC.

It's so nice to finally meet my little girl! I'll add some pics later.

Monday, December 21, 2009

One more post





Baby girl still hasn't made an outside arrival yet. So I figured I would post some of the prenatal pictures I had done a week and a half ago. I was 38ish weeks. I am really happy with the pictures. My friend Courtney did them for me. We've known each other since we were 6 years old! She does photography on the side (she's an ICU nurse). She took our wedding pictures and some belly pictures when Joel was in the womb. It's pretty cool that she's been able to photograph a lot of our special moments in life. If anyone is interested in seeing some of her other photos click here.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Last post?


Stinx was in quite the "mow-e" mood today. Which in the Keith language means "cuddly". He kept giving the baby hugs. It was pretty cute. Hopefully he'll want to be gentle and cuddly once she's here too. Which won't be too much longer. I am due in just 3-4 days. This very well could be my last blog post before she arrives.. and then who knows when I'll get around to posting once she is here. I imagine the first little while I will be busy sleeping and feeding her doucies and changing those cute itty bitty diapers...
We still haven't decided on a name. I feel terrible about this. I never thought we'd leave it this long. But maybe we just need to see her first. I have 2 thoughts on this.
a) she won't arrive until we pick a name
b) a name won't arrive until she does
So meh... I guess we'll figure something out eventually.
I am trying not to be too anxious about her coming. Earlier this week I was getting really panicky about her arrival. I think in part because I had Stinx at exactly 39 weeks.. and I am now past that point. I was also obsessing about induction. I'm worried that the longer I go the more interventions will take place. I talked to my doula though and she basically told me to chill out and take each day as it comes. And she's right. There is nothing I can do. This is just totally out of my control. This baby girl will come when she is ready! And imo, in God's perfect timing.
Stinx and I have had lots of special moments in the last couple weeks. I have really been enjoying my only child while I can. We went on an awesome date last week to Humpty's. We had a very delicious meal: the waffle dream (waffle with ice cream). Yummo! As a family we went to the zoo's Christmas special event, Zoolites. That was pretty cool. Tonight we drove around the city looking at different Christmas light displays.
Well there is more I wanted to say but I am getting tired and should be off to bed now. Hopefully my next post will be the announcement of our new baby girl.. and hopefully she'll have a name.

A Lovely Gift!

Michelle from A Lovely Start dropped off the sweetest gift for me today!!! She made my baby girl a super cute newborn pocket diaper!! Red with black snaps! She had remembered from a conversation we had long ago about how I loved the ladybug colors for diapers. Gush! And then, on top of that, she made me an awesome matching wet bag!! I am soo excited to use these. I feel so spoiled! Michelle rocks!!!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Quotes

Lately Stinx has been saying some pretty cute and comical things. I keep meaning to get a little journal to log the quotes in but I haven't remembered to yet. So instead I will post them here until I get the journal.



"I love your doucies" - Said while I was having a bath...



"I like your doucies" - Said while cuddling.



I find the doucies comments funny because he's been weaned for 5 months. I ask him if he remembers nursing and he doesn't seem to have a clue. He knows thats what they are for and knows they have milk in them, but doesn't seem to remember using them..



Then today Dad and I were talking about what we'll have for supper and Joel requested perogies. He then said, "I love perogies. They're cuddly. Just like my blanket".



I may have already commented on this last one in the blog but just in case... When I ask him what we should name the baby he says "monster".

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Getting there

Finally life has slowed down for a little while. I finished my last craft fair and did better than expected. I was hoping to reach 2-3 sales but managed to sell 12 nerdsicles! So I was happy with that outcome. I've retired the sewing machine for an indefinite amount of time.

I spent the past week doing some nesting, relaxing and some reading.

My cousin also threw me a Blessingway which was really nice. It was nice getting together with the mama's closest to me. It was nice to hear their blessings for me, the baby and the birth. They also pampered me with lovely things like bath salts and lotions. I'm not much of a bather but since getting this nice bath stuff I've enjoyed 2 lovely baths. Ahhh. Must do more often.

I've been trying to get through the Birthing From Within book as well as the Your Best Birth book. I'm feeling more confident the closer I get to my due date. I have roughly 17 days left, give or take.

Two of my close friends gave birth to their 3rd babies this week. I am sooo excited for both of them! Both had little girls. Guess I am just waiting for my own wee girl to come along.

We STILL haven't decided on a name yet... I can't believe nothing seems right yet. I am praying the right name will come to us soon.

As for weather here - it's been blizzarding! Stinx and I have been in the house for the past 2 days. I'm starting to get some cabin fever.. but the roads are terrible and I don't really have anywhere to go. Tomorrow we will go see in the in-law's for supper so that will be a nice break from our place and hopefully the roads will be much better.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

4 More Weeks

Life has been very crazy lately. At the end of October and begining of November I took the health regions VBAC class. Overall I thought the class was worth taking. It was only a 2 night class and I felt it should have been 3-4 nights. The first night it felt like we wasted too much time talking about the pro's & con's of c-birth and VBAC's. Like, Hello! I signed up for a vbac class because I've already decided the benefits outweigh the cons! But I guess not everyone had completely made that decision. But that's typical for a health region class... like at a regular prenatal class they list the pro's and con's of formula and breastfeeding... anyways!

I also organized a local VBAC meet up. I invited mom's from the local AP group who had had VBAC's or were planning to. We met up at the wonderful Room To Grow and the mom's who had VBAC's shared their inspiring birth stories. It was really nice to hear the experiences of these moms and the challenges they overcame. There is talk that the Calgary VBAC Support Group will be starting up again in January. I really hope it does as there is a huge need for it. Hopefully my VBAC will be "successful" and I can help with these meetings down the road.

On top of preparing for the baby girl on the way I have been sewing nerdsicles like crazy. I did my first sale ever at a local flea market. I did way better than expected due to support from friends and family. It wiped out quite a bit of my "stock" so I have been madly sewing for the sale this coming Saturday. It will be interesting to see how I do at this sale. This one is at my local community centre and features only hand made crafts (where as the flea market was more like a garage sale). And since most of my friends came to the last one I think this one will give me a more accurate picture of local interest. After this sale though I am shutting down the nerdsicle production. I'm going to need the following 3 weeks to get ready for baby... cleaning, mental preparation etc.

Dad and I are still struggling with the baby's name. We've narrowed it down to 5-6 but none of them seem perfect. Girl names are soo hard! I had a boy's name picked out ages ago but a girls name, of course not!

I had an U/S yesterday to check on my amniotic fluid (it was low near the end with Stinx). While doing the U/S they took some 3D pictures (I think because one of the techs was a student). They showed it to me afterward and it was pretty cool, but also kind of creepy. It looked like a typical 3D U/S. The picture was kind of clear but then around the edges it looked all weird and morphed.. just kinda creepy. She had her hand up by her face so it was more of a profile shot. The tech also said she wasn't very active yesterday because I hadn't had anything to eat right before the U/S. I didn't mind though because at all of the other U/S the techs comment that she is a "spirited" little one. So I really didn't mind that she was mellow yesterday. And it's getting kinda cramped in there anyway.. probaby not enough room to wiggle like crazy. Her breathing and heart rate were good and she did move around a few times just not as much as they wanted I guess... There might have been a couple shots they couldn't take because of her position.

Stinx is doing pretty good these days. He's cutting his last 2 molars. YAY!!!! They'll be in completely before the baby comes. I am soo happy about that. He's been obsessed with puzzles lately. I saw an add on kijiji for a whole wack of puzzles so I might get them for him... might be a good quiet time activity for when the baby is here.

I can't believe Christmas is a month away.... There is so much I want to do but I feel like I am running out of time... ah. Once this craft sale is over I can focus a lot more on the things I need to do.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Slightly Productive

I am happy to report that I have been slightly more productive these days. Dad picked up a nice dresser for me and during the Thanksgiving week end I was able to organize the baby's room. It's super organized... The clothing has been sorted by age and put away in boxes or put in the dresser. The one size pocket diapers have been boxed up and the new born diapers are waiting to be used in the basket on the change table. It's so nice and clean.. I am glad I won't have to worry about that later.

With the room taken care of I have been able to spend more time reading about VBAC's. I find a lot of VBAC stories super encouraging but sometimes not so much... especially when the writer focuses on the VBAC being successful because of it being a homebirth. It just makes me super jealous! That is not an option for me right now. I can't even pay for a midwife. They are all booked and as I learned today, with my due date, they've avoided me at all cost because I am due so close to Christmas. So it really is no option. I have to have a hospital birth. I want to hear encouraging positive VBAC stories that occur in hospitals!

I am also slightly frustrated because the local VBAC support group isn't running anymore!! I am in the midst of setting up a one time support meeting (almost my own version of a blessingway) but I am having trouble finding VBAC mom's to share with me...

Now I am just getting ranty... oops.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Naughty Me

So I really am a naughty blogger. My posts are fewer and few between. I wish I could say that the list of To-Do's in the previous post has kept me busy... but sadly, I haven't finished any of those tasks! Sad. Truly Sad. However, today I am going to view some dressers, so hopefully by tonight I can cross that one off the list.


I signed myself up for a couple craft fairs in November. I don't know what to expect really. I think I'll just be very pleased if one random stranger buys a nerdsicle :) I haven't done anything with my etsy page. Bad me. I'm waiting to finish my light box so I can post better pictures on the site. Maybe I can get around to that this week end too.


I'm still suffering from pregnancy insomnia. Hence I am posting at 6:30am. I really should go back to bed now as Stinx will be up by 7:30... maybe 8am if I am super lucky.


Here is my newest nerdsicle:


Sunday, September 20, 2009

Long time no post

I don't really have excuses for not posting lately. I guess I could blame it on my sewing frenzy. I've been making lots of nerdsicles lately. I decided to try and do an etsy shop. This is it. I have lots to learn about etsy still. I don't really have super high hopes for it. Some people were asking for nerdsicles so I thought I'd give it a try. I'm also blogging the nerds here. I am enjoying the sewing and loving to be creative again. I hope I don't give it up.

Stinx has been so interesting lately. At 2.5 years old I think the "real" tantrums have started. If I thought I knew a tantrum before then I was very nieve. But at the same time, this age is sooooo sweet. One minute he might be having a tantrum because I won't let him eat a candy (or a bag full of skittles) and then the next minute he is running up to me, giving me the hugest hug ever and saying, "I love you too mom!". It makes my heart melt every time. He's been in a really huggy-cuddly-kissy mood. I love love love it. It's so sweet and I guess I know it probably won't last forever. Do 30 somethings treat their mom's this way? I can only pray.. or would that just be creepy?

Then I have the baby on the way.. ahh.. It's awesome being able to feel her kick around in there. Although, I'd forgotten how hard the kicks become... It's not too awkward yet but I have a feeling it will get a little too crowded eventually. I am so excited to meet her! I can't wait to see what she looks like and get to know her personality. I wonder if she'll be a quiet timid girl or a little firecracker. I went to some garage sales yesterday and picked up some super cute girly baby clothes. After washing them all I am anxious to get her room ready. This is our to do list for now:

  1. Get a Dresser
  2. Get Dad to assemble the closet shelves
  3. Get Dad to put a closet door on the closet
  4. Get some clothes hangers
  5. Get a Infant Car Seat
  6. Decide on a baby name! lol.

Yeah we are still having a super tough time thinking of names! Oh well. I am sure something will come up that we both like...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Sleepy Kitty

I've gotten on a stuffie making kick. It's kinda addicting. This one is my favorite so far.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Bee the Betty

Isn't she a gem?

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Glow

So people always talk about that pregnancy "glow". What is that? The only glow I seem to get is my big ass dumb smile. My hair doesn't flourish with pregnancy - in fact it's the opposite. It falls out. Seriously! After a shower when styling this mane, my hairs comes out so easily. What the heck.

The only thing that really seems to flourish during pregnancy is my finger nails. They're normally just weak things but add a little pregnancy hormone and I have talons. Super strong and they just grow and grow. So weird.

Pregnancy is so weird.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Stinx & Bee

Stinx giving Bee some doucies. This was seriously so cute. He kept wanting to "feed" her.

Then a little snuggle on the couch.


Thursday, August 20, 2009

Planning for a VBAC

So as my due date comes closer I am thinking more about this upcoming birth. I am trying to focus on how it can be a more positive experience than the first. Not depending on which way baby arrives, VBAC vs C-Birth, but how it can be better. Of course, my goal is to have a natural VBAC, but what matters the most is that baby arrives safely and that I feel informed and in control of the experience.

Let's say for example, baby is breech, I will probably have to have a c-birth. That doesn't mean history has to repeat itself. In some ways, planned c-birth's are easy to prepare for. You are expecting it. But in the case I might need another emergency c-birth, it doesn't have to be a repeat of Stinx birth. Things I want to do differently, should a c-birth be necessary? I want to hold my baby and not let go after a few minutes. I want to nurse my baby right away, as soon as possible. If for some reason I can't hold the baby, baby must stay with Dad. I would want less pain medication so I'm not high as a kite! I'd never leave baby out of Dad's or mines vision. This baby would be with all the time, not off in the nursery waiting to be bathed. And not really super important but one regret I have, I want to see my placenta.

That said, I am not planning for a c-birth. That is just my emergency back up plan. If a c-birth is necessary, I do believe it can be an entirely different experience this time around. Partly because I feel I will be doing everything humanly possible to avoid one, meaning that if one is required, it will be needed. I won't be left wondering if it was needed or not.

So coming back to the VBAC. I've picked out an awesome doula with lots of VBAC experience. Her resume is seriously impressive. I feel that with her by Dad and I's side, she will be a huge support. I know I will be able to ask her questions and get an unbiased answer. From what I read, having a doula at a VBAC is the #1 best thing you can do to prepare - even more so than a good doctor or midwife. I've also signed up for a VBAC class with the local health region. I haven't talked to anyone who's taken the class so I am interested in seeing how it goes. It will be two evenings in the fall.

Anti-Kels and I went to a LLL meeting on Monday and while I was there I browsed their library. I was sooo happy to find they had The VBAC Companion book. I have looked high and low for this book. It's a bit pricey to buy on-line so I was hoping to find a copy locally. My doula has a copy but I am not sure when I will be able to borrow it. So I started reading that this week as well. I've also got a copy of Birthing From Within (that I totally scored at Goodwill!) and I read through bit's of Ina May's book too. So I am trying to fill myself with as much knowledge as possible.

Our local VBAC group isn't running currently so I am trying to organize a Mom's Night Out or Playdate with the VBAC mama's in my local attachment parenting playgroup. I am really looking forward to hearing all of their first hand experience and advice. I can read tons of info on-line but there's something reassuring about talking to people who have really experienced something.

I can do it. At this moment, there is no reason why I won't be able to have this baby girl naturally. I can do it. My body was designed to do this.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Potty Learning

Stinx has been making good progress in his potty learning. I have finally worked up the guts to take him out in public without a diaper on. I was so nervous about this - but it's been working out pretty well so far. He's been very co-operative about going potty before we leave the house and while we're out. I feel like he could be potty trained before the baby comes. And then of course I will expect a regression after the baby comes. But I still think it's better to teach him now than after. We bring the little potty with us everywhere. This has helped a lot. He's not really scared of big toilets but he doesn't want to use them most of the time. So the little potty has come in very handy.

I also have to say that I love my diaper sprayer. Not only is it great for when I used it to clean poopy cloth diapers, but it's wonderful to use to spray out the potty. Such a genius invention.

I also really want to try Elimination Communication with the next baby. I don't know how soon I'd start but I'd like to start a regular potty time first thing in the morning once she's able to sit up. I think I will experiment before then but it probably won't be consistent.

It looks like my new year's goals just might be met.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Public Doucies

Today Stinx and I went looking for training pants. I realized the other day that most of his current trainers are too small, aka difficult to pull up and down (a concept he hasn't mastered), like size 18 months (he is almost 30 months). So I am currently on the hunt.

While hunting in Army & Navy I passed a woman sitting on a bench in front of the change rooms. There she sat nursing her toddler. He was probably 18 months old. I was so impressed. She wasn't the *typical* extended breastfeeding mother I see on occasion (aka a hippy). She was of an ethnic minority and dressed in her culturally traditional clothing.

I turned to her and said, "It's so nice to see people breastfeeding in public! It makes me happy". I then smiled and walked away. She just smiled back.

She probably thought I was crazy. Haha. I just wanted to say something encouraging. It really was nice to see.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Getting back to routine

I have been attempting to get Stinx and myself back into a routine now that I am feeling better. Some of it is going well. He's been watching a lot less TV, eating at the table more, but the nap... That just might have been wishful thinking. I think the nap really is on the way out. It worked the first couple days but after that it wasn't working. And I definitely tried. I think he will still nap every few days (If I put my effort into it) but realistically, the nap is on the way out. I guess he's just getting older.
We've also been getting out a lot more. I think this has helped tremendously! Activities are always nice... Even if it is a trip to the dentist.

Yesterday Stinx had his 2nd visit. This dentist was way better than the first I took him to. Stinx still got upset and cried when the dentist looked in his mouth. Afterwards the dentist asked me how Stinx does getting his hair cut and or seeing the doctor. I mentioned that he's done really well, but now that he pointed it out, Stinx is very cautious in new surroundings. DUH! I don't know why I didn't think of it before. He does well at the doctor because he's seen her since he was a tiny baby. The hair dresser - he's a little reluctant, acts very shy, but doesn't cry. But it totally makes sense with the dentist. When the assistant brought us to the back Stinx was nervous. I got him to sit in my lap and after awhile, maybe 5 minutes, he warmed up to her. He was looking around at the other kid next to him, asking what the assistant was doing etc. He just needed time to get comfortable. Then the dentist comes in and introduces himself. He was very quiet and gentle but after a minute he wants Stinx to lay his head on a pillow in his lap and open his mouth wide. DUH, he's scared, he doesn't know you at all. So yeah, at the next appointment I am going to ask that the dentist hang out with us for like 5 minutes before starting the open mouth exam stuff. I have a feeling it will go much better. Stinx is just a cautious little guy. He doesn't jump into things.
So back to activities! I have signed Stinx up for his very first swimming lessons and a dance class. Both classes are parented and 30 minutes long. Swimming will be on Mondays and dance will be on Thursdays. I think this will help us get out of the house more in the fall. Although, I am nervous about the dance class... what if I can't keep up? I'll be 7-8 months along by then. LOL.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Baby Bee

This is my 3 day old neice! Stinx and I went for a quick visit today. I ended up doing a little lesson in swaddling.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Girly Dipes!

Yay! My first girly diapers! While Dad was down in Houston this past week I got him to pick these diapers up for me. The first is a XS thirsties fab fitted diaper and the second is an XS Bum Genius all-in-one diaper. Both are so cute and tiny!
ps- Oh yeah, forgot to mention, I had an ultrasound awhile ago and I've been told it's a girl! I meant to post about it but I figured most of you know already via facebook.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Baby Bee is Here!!!

Anti-Kels had her baby girl this afternoon!!! Her nick name is Bee and for confidentiality, I'll leave it that way in my blogs. She was born at 3:20pm weighing 6lbs 4oz and measuring 18 inches long!!!! She sounds so cute and tiny!!! I asked Bugma what color her hair was and she said it looked black - she wasn't sure since she was wearing a little cap. Aw! I can't wait to see her but it might be awhile still. Only grandparents are allowed to visit in the hospital.

I am soo proud of her! From the sounds of it the only help she had was a little laughing gas near the end!! Good job Kels!! I'm so proud of you!!! I am so happy Kels got to experience a vaginal birth! yay! I'm so glad her little baby is cute and healthy!!

And hopefully she'll turn out to be a champion nurser!!!

I'm soooo excited to be an Aunt! Yippy! I'm officially Anti-Kirsty.

Insomnia Sucks

Stinx woke up at 3am or something. I didn't really look at the clock. He came to my room looking for me - trying to drag me back to his little bed. I told him to come sleep in my big bed but he refused. He mentioned earlier that my room is too dark. I need a night light. As I get bigger, his bed gets too small.

We both went pee on the potty and then went back to his bed.

I've been laying there for over an hour. I can't fall back to sleep. Whether it's pregnancy induced or just the fact that I can't shut my brain off, I don't know.

But I figure if I write out what my thoughts are, maybe I'll be able to sleep soon.

First I was thinking of how Anti-Kels is due really soon. I just checked my FB and she told me she's having regular contractions every 10 minutes. Wow. Could be sooner than I thought. Then I was thinking about how I will have to get this baby out of me at some point. I will be birthing at the same hospital Stinx was born at. When I start thinking about nurses or doctors wanting to do interventions, I automatically feel hostile. Like bitter. Like a bitch. Like, don't fuck with me. I just don't want to be trampled on again. I want the nurses to ask my permission for everything they do. Check how far dilated I am? Ok, so long as you ask my permission. I know I really need to deal with this bitterness before the baby comes. I'm working on it. I tried making an appointment for a private session of the Birth Stories work shop through Birthing From Within. The instructor was on holidays. I think she's back now. I'll have to call her tomorrow.

After I thought about my desire for a VBAC and my hostility towards the hospital staff, my thoughts turned back to work.

I saw a client on Wednesday who just puzzles me. When I met him years ago, he was an angry young man with an intense crack addiction. He was aggressive, rude and got into fights. He was barred many times and then for life. He'd still manage to sneak into the building at meal times and then sleep off his crack runs. He looked like crap. He looked like a zombie. I remember times pleading with him to leave. I hated the thought of kicking him out. Even though he was a jerk, I knew he just needed some food and sleep. I think it was right before I had Stinx, he cleaned himself up. So this was about 3 years ago. I remember seeing him sober and thinking he looked like a totally different person.

So anyways, I saw him on Wednesday again. I see him every now and then on my weekly shift. He looks handsome now, like a normal 29 year old man. He looks healthy. He acts respectable. He has clearly gone through an amazing life change. A miracle. Seriously, a miracle. What I don't get is why he is still at the shelter. Has he switched one addiction for the other? Perhaps gambling instead of smoking crack? Or does he just lack life skills and the support needed to get off the street? He puzzles me. I want to ask him what happened, what made him clean up? I want to tell him to go all the way, get off the street, but I won't. I'm too shy to say stuff like that unless I know the person well. And I don't know him well. Our conversations in the past were limited to me begging him to leave the building without me having to call the police.

I want to encourage him and tell him I am still blown away by his change in attitude and lifestyle. It is a radical difference.

I want to hear his story. It's hard getting to that point with a client though. It takes time and 4 hours a week doesn't leave me with lots of time to build re pore with clients. It basically leaves me enough time to visit the clients I already know well.

I'm going to attempt to go back to bed now. Good night.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Laziness

Last night I worked at the shelter. My weekly shift. It's getting tougher to go down there. Not because I don't enjoy it - I do. It's just pregnancy. It's my lack of energy. Pregnancy has made me really lazy - and with a lot of things. I just find that on wednesday nights I'd rather be in pj's than visiting my friends at the shelter.

How else am I lazy? Well Any routine I used to have with Stinx crumbled. At first it started with the TV. I was so sick and exhausted in the first trimester that I let Stinx get away with watching too much tv. I definitely feel like he's addicted to it, like crack. He's not one of those kids who watches a little bit and does a craft or play with a toy, no. He's glued to the TV like a zombie. And when I dare turn it off, he throws a fit.

Then there's nap times. They seem to be very difficult these days. We used to have a routine of having lunch then reading books and then nap. Once I got pregnant I basically told him to come nap with me. I'd usually be asleep before him. It worked fine the first few months but now Stinx really fights the nap and I lost the drive to pursue it. So sometimes he just doesn't. Sometimes thats fine, but if he misses it more than 2 days in a row, I've noticed it gets to him.

Bedtime is another one I've gotten too slack with. His bedtime used to be 9pm but now it's all over the map - because of the weird nap habits.

I know all of this isn't a big deal, and I slacked out of survival, but now that I am feeling more energetic, I can see what's happened. The lack of routine is causing me more trouble than good. Things aren't predictable for Stinx the way they used to be. He feels like he can watch tons of tv, doesn't have to eat meals at the table, doesn't have to nap etc. He tantrums more than he was before. And I feel like thats partly because of the lack of predictability. He's also been up more at night.

So I'm changing my ways... well going back to the old ways when we had routine. Here are the new "Rules" I am implementing.

1. No TV until Stinx is dressed and had breakfast
2. Limited Tv time
3. Must eat all meals at the table (snacks can be wherever)
4. A nap every day - after book reading. (I want to start the nap routine by 2pm)
5. Bedtime Bath will be started at 8pm every night regardless of the nap.
6. I also want to have a planned activity every day. Now that I have the energy again I want to be more active - ie. playdates, park, library, swimming, zoo etc.

It helped writing this out. I've been thinking about it a lot this week and seeing what I want to go back to is helpful. I know it's not hard, it's just a matter of consistency, and I think Stinx needs it. I'm tired of fighting with him over trivial things like turning the tv off or eating supper in the kitchen or napping.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Grocery Delivery!

I know I am really whiny when it comes to groceries. I know I've blogged about it all too often. But this should be the last one... I promise.

Yesterday I gave in and decided to actually try grocery delivery. Everyone has recommended Spud.ca so I checked them out first. They seem to only deliver to once a week depending which neighborhood you are in. They wouldn't be in my neighborhood until Friday and I decided that was too long to wait. So I then tried the Sunterra Market. They do same day delivery and the charge is only $8. The website was being really annoying last night but I finally got it to work. My order was supposed to be delivered between 10am-1pm today. By 1:30 they hadn't arrived and I worried my order didn't go through. I called them and it turned out their website wasn't working properly this week end. However, they did get my order, they were just behind. The person on the phone told me the delivery would be there soon.

And by 2pm it was at my door. Amazing! Groceries at my door. I love the concept.

Forget about low blood pressure and fainting! Forget about the toddler throwing a fit in the grocery store! Just stay home. Let someone else do it for you.

And yeah, I know, Sunterra Market isn't cheap. We won't be ordering groceries every week. But when I don't feel well or when Dad is out of town for work, I will definitely be ordering my groceries!

Monday, August 3, 2009

One Wicked Storm

Yesterday Stinx didn't nap. Some days he just refuses. Some days it takes him forever to fall asleep. When he doesn't nap, he'll often wake up at night once or twice - which tells me he still needs a nap. But anyways... Yesterday was one of those non-nap days. Dad and I went to a wedding reception in the evening and Bugma was babysitting. Bugma put Stinx to sleep at about 8:15pm.

I probably didn't go to bed until 11pm. At 1:15am Stinx woke up calling for me. I went to his room and snuggled him back to sleep. Then I snuck out and enjoyed my big bed again. About an hour later I heard this really strange sound on the monitor. I thought he had woken up but it turned out to just be wind and rain. Then it got louder, really loud. The next thing I know it's hailing and it's sooo loud I am convinced Stinx will wake up any moment. I sneak back into his room. I knew that if he woke up he would be really frightened. The wind, hail, thunder and lightening were all really close and intense. And it was loud. Did I mention that?

So I waited. and waited. and waited. Stinx slept through it. It sounded like a tornado was buzzing around the neighborhood but he slept through it. Finally once the storm settled and moved east I snuck back into my own room and went back to sleep.

An hour later, "Mom!!!!". He woke up again!!!

How is it that my child woke up before the crazy scary storm, and after the crazy scary storm, but not during? I got such a kick out of that.. well kinda, I was sorta tired and exhausted in the middle of the night but... it was still kinda funny. He can sleep through anything I guess... He just can't transition from sleep cycles.

Monday, July 27, 2009

All by his Lonesome

This morning Stinx and I went to do some errands. We stopped at Superstore to pick up a few things, dropped by Value Village to check out the maternity clothes (the selection was terrible today!), then stopped in at Motherhood Maternity. Stinx was really into shopping today. Every time we left a store he'd say, "Another store!!". It was weird. He normally can't stand shopping and I don't blame him.

Anyway, on to the point.

After our shopping adventure we were driving down a busy street in our neighborhood and I saw a little toddler wandering down the sidewalk by himself. I pulled over right away and got out of the car. Sure enough, no one was around, and he was stepping out into the busy street. I ran over and grabbed his hand and got him back on the sidewalk. He looked about 18 months. I tried asking him where his mom was but it was obvious he wasn't a talker. I decided to just call 911 right away instead of wasting time trying to figure out where he lived. The operator sent a unit right away and asked me to stay on the line until they arrived. I ended up having to get Stinx out of the car so the two boys played on some one's yard while we waited. After 5-10 minutes I saw a woman coming down a different street and I asked if this was her son. She said he was and that she'd been looking for him. She said thank you for finding him. I told the operator the mother arrived and they told me to tell her that she needed to stay to prove she was the child's mother. I explained this to the mom which I found really awkward but she stayed a few minutes and then said she needed to go get her 2.5 year old son. Off she went and I was really hoping she would actually come back. I waited a few more minutes and the officers arrived. As they were opening their car doors the mom came back with both kids. I explained to the cops that she had shown up while I was waiting for them. They started talking to her and I asked if I could go and they said yes.

I put Stinx back in the car and as I was driving away the mother and kids were already walking back to their house.

It was really bizarre. The first thing I did was judge. Who's kid is this? Where is his parents? Why is no one watching him?

Then I thought about what could have happened. What if he had walked out into the street? He was so small no one would have seen him stepping out between cars. What if some creepy person found him? He easily could have been abducted!!

But then I thought about how this could happen to any parent. I mean, just this summer, I was at a playgroup where a 1 year old wandered off and stepped out onto the street while his mom wasn't watching. And I think some kids are just more adventurous and likely to be escape artists. I don't want to excuse his mom completely, but she may have turned her back for just a minute, or ran into the house to get the phone, or whatever. Maybe she was busy dealing with his 2.5 year old brother and he bolted out the front door.

To make this even worse though was that his mother looked like she had the crap beaten out of her. She had two black eyes and other bruises. It was sad.

I just don't know what to make of it. I guess I am just happy that he didn't get hit by a car or stolen by some creepy weirdo. I'm hoping his family is safer than it seems.

When I put myself in her shoes - say Stinx wandered away from the house and I couldn't find him for at least 10 minutes, and then I walked around the block and saw him sitting on the grass with another mother and her son, I'd be running over. I'd be balling! Definitely, I'd be balling. Talking to the police I'd be a crying mess. Maybe that's just my personality, or the mother guilt I'd put on myself.

I don't know. It was weird. Part of me still wants to judge her and yet the other part of me just feels compassion for her knowing it could happen to anyone.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Productive

Today we got a lot accomplished. Stinx and I went for a quick trip to the zoo. We saw giraffes, gorillas, koala's and some other animals. Afterwards we made our way to the Riley Park wading pool. Stinx was his cautious self. After a bit of time he decided it was safe and played at the shallow end of the water. At one point he got a little adventurous and went out to the middle of the pool. I saw him waiting there for a minute and sure enough he panicked. I'm not sure what set him off but he was too scared to walk back to the edge of the water. Thankfully an older boy brought him to me, I had walked in as far as I could without soaking my jeans. Stupid me for wearing jeans! Then Stinx fell in love with our friend's inflatable giraffe. He took it for a walk up and down the hill, in the water, up the hill again. I caught him talking to it several times. It was pretty cute.
Since we've been home I've done some gardening, laundry and dishes. I'm feeling pretty productive.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Kick It

In the past week I have finally been able to feel the little baby fluttering around. I thought I might have been feeling things earlier but it always turned out to be gas. But last night when waiting for Stinx to fall asleep I definitely felt the baby move. It was precious. I suppose I'll be feeling things more often now. Yay!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Doucies All Done

Stinx stopped nursing almost 2 weeks ago when I wrote this post. I had no idea the end would be that close. I also had no idea how easy weaning would be. Most of the weaning experiences I have heard from friends sound really difficult or bittersweet (Especially the younger the baby). I really dreaded the idea of weaning. I expected lots of tears from him and myself. But not a tear was shed from either of us.

Once I was pregnant my body felt like it was telling me it was time. Not in the painful sense. I was almost counting on that. I was hoping the pain I have heard about while nursing during pregnancy would show up just so I would have more incentive to wean. It never really came. Instead my body felt like it was telling me it was time. As well, the fact that I lose weight during the first trimester gave me reason.

I didn't want to wean him instantly, I wanted it to be a gradual process. I didn't want it to be me weaning him, I wanted him to self-wean as well. I never got to point where I resented our breastfeeding relationship - I think it really was just the perfect time for both Stinx and I.

It took 3 months of using the "Don't offer, Don't refuse" approach, as well as shortened nursings with the abc song. It worked perfectly for us. Stinx never put up a fuss about the shortened nursings. He just slowly stopped asking. Maybe this is because of the pregnancy - lack of milk? change in taste? I'm not sure. I like to think it was just the right time for him.

For myself, I don't feel bittersweet. It just feels sweet. I enjoyed the deep connection we had during breastfeeding. From the moment I first nursed Stinx in the hospital it was something I loved. It was beautiful. Sometimes I think it's the one thing I have managed to do well at in motherhood. I've fallen short in so many other parts of parenting but breastfeeding, I did ok.

So it just feels good. We nursed for 28 lovely months and it ended as lovely as it began.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Twilight Saga

So I'm all done reading the Twilight Saga. I can't believe how addictive it was. I just couldn't put any of the books down. It was like a desperate need to know what was going to happen next. I think I read them too fast because each book doesn't stand alone in my memory. They kind of just blurred together. On Sunday night I started the last book "Breaking Dawn" and I seriously had a lot of trouble sleeping because I kept dreaming about how it would end. Stinx woke up at 5 am monday and I couldn't fall back to sleep after he did so I just got up and kept reading.
But now I am all done and I can go back to my normal life. Maybe I should do some dishes. I need to do groceries too. Maybe I could pick up the movie on the way home...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Juice Box?

So this week I had my 16 week doctor's appointment. I took Stinx along for the little trip. The receptionist passed me the plastic cup to go put a "sample" in. Stinx and I went to the bathroom and I did the routine "pee in the cup". After I left the stall Stinx spotted the cup and asked, "Mom, is that a Juice Box?".

Friday, July 10, 2009

Little Itty Bitty Diaper's Stash

I hate to admit this but I have been collecting little diapers since they day I got my positive pregnancy test. I didn't really plan it that way, I was just trying to think ahead and I thought I was buying them more for Anti-Kels. All of these diapers have been lovingly used. Most are in prefect shape. I have (in order of picture) 3 Gabby's Newborn AIO's, 3 Gabby's Newborn Fitted's, 4 Kissaluvs Size 0 (I actually got 5 more since I took the picture), 2 small Little Beetle Fitted's, 3 Newborn Loveybums Organic Fitted's, 4 small Thirsties Fab Fitted's, 1 Thirsties Cover and 2 Bummis Super Brite Newborn covers. I think I am mostly all set... I'd like to get another cover or two.

With Stinx I am mostly a pocket diaper user so it will interesting to see how I like using so many fitted's. I figure most of the newborn diapers will only be used for a month or two and then we'll be using the one size pockets.

And my biggest splurge of all was this Good Mama one size fitted diaper. It's soooo soft inside. Lovely.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Such a nerd

So a friend of mine lent me the book "Twilight" from the 4 book series. I had seen the comercials for the movie but didn't think it looked like something I'd be into. I'm not typically a "vampire" type. But, I am a sucker for romance. I had also read about it on the Half Pint Pixie blog . I should have known just by reading her posts that it would be addcitive.

I've had it for about a week and a half and hadn't bothered to pick it up until tuesday night. I picked it up thinking I'd read a few pages and then go to bed. Ha! Impossible! I sat up reading that book until 12:30 or 1am. I never stay up that late by the way. I almost always go to sleep about an hour after Stinx. All night I dreamt about the story... so lame. When I woke up the first thing I wanted to do was read the book but of course motherly duties call. But once Stinx was playing with his trains I couldn't help it. I had to! Anyways, needless to say I finished the book by the time I had to work last night.

I desperately want to read the next one but I have sooo much cleaning to do before the week end. I am throwing Anti-Kels a baby shower and we're also having some friends over. And the house looks like a tornado hit it. I really can't waste all day reading again.

So instead I am killing time blogging. Typical.

Little Gardener

Stinx is turning into a little gardener.

We've been spending a lot of time in the backyard in the last month since the weather has been warmer (although this week it is quite rainy). We have filled our huge pond with soil and planted some perennials in it. Generally I don't have a great track record with plants but I am hope full I can keep this garden. I'll post some pics once the sun comes out.


Friday, July 3, 2009

The end may be near

So it's not the end of the world, maybe just the nearing end of a wonderful saga for Stinx and I. It seems that the past few months of gentle weaning have come to some progress. It started out with just shortening the nursing sessions. Surprisingly he took to it well. He never seemed upset about the change. I have mostly used the "Don't offer, don't refuse" approach.

In the past week he has only nursed once every other day. It was hard to believe, the first few times we went a whole day, without even a short 10 second nurse session.

So while he isn't weaned yet, it seems he is on the journey to weaning himself.

I am really happy about this. I have really enjoyed every bit of our breastfeeding journey. I am happy that I didn't wean him early on when "society" tells moms it is appropriate. I am thankful that I was able to nurse my teething toddler during the rough nights. Breastfeeding my boy has been a wonderful experience and I am glad I gave my self the chance to extend it longer than "normal".


If I wasn't pregnant would I have encouraged the gentle weaning? Probably not yet. But perhaps this is just the right timing for Stinx and he may have self weaned at this age anyway.

I'm thinking of throwing Stinx a weaning party. Maybe I will call it the "Doucies all done" Party. I think I'll throw it once he's gone a few days without any "doucies".

Saturday, June 27, 2009

The Divide

So today Dad and I went on the House & Garden Tour which is a fundraiser for the Alberta Ballet. It's not that we are passionate about the ballet, heck, I am not sure if either of us have attended the ballet. But I do love open houses. I love seeing places people live. Not just fancy places... I mean, I love going to open houses in my own humble little neighborhood. There's just something about seeing people's sanctuaries. The places people go to lay their heads or to read a book or watch a movie. So a couple years ago when Stinx was just a small wee babe I heard about the Alberta Ballet's House & Garden Tour. I really wanted to go but Stinx was just too small. Now that he is a "big boy" he had plenty of fun with grandparents while Dad and I enjoyed our tour.

I was expecting big fancy homes with beautiful gardens. And that's pretty much what we got. Million dollar homes in fancy schmancy neighborhoods. Two of the homes are currently on the market. One for 3.5 million, the other for 5 million. CRAZY. All of the homes had crazy huge en suite bathrooms and gigantic walk in closets which were more like the size of a normal bedroom. Seriously! Who needs that much closet space? No one wears THAT many clothes. It was ridiculous. They all had beautiful kitchens too.

In one home there was 3 children's rooms which each had en suite bathroom and walk in closet. Dad commented, "Just imagine all the extra cleaning they must do!". I was all,... "Honey, these people don't clean, they have maids... silly!" And it's so true. The work it would take to clean these houses would be a full time job in itself.

We went to an "eco-friendly" in-fill that was pretty cool. I liked the design on that one quite a bit. They had some really cool art work that was truly inspiring. They were clearly creative people, or.. they just have good taste.

There was another home in the lovely neighborhood of Scarboro which had a really modern architecturally design. Dad really liked that one.

So most of the houses blew us away, but the gardens... not so much. Out of the 7 properties, it seemed only 2-3 had nice gardens, worthy of attention. I mean, they all had nice landscaping and everything, but to be called a House & Garden Tour, I was expecting more from the gardens. Oh well.

It was a fun day despite my cold, morning sickness and exhaustion.

Afterwards though, I really couldn't help but think, of how differently MOST of us live. And I was definitely thinking of my friends who live at the shelter. It's crazy what a rich city I live in, yet the homeless population is always on the rise.

I've spent years of my life working with the homeless. Most of them only own a backpack full of their possessions. If they're lucky they have a locker to store extra things in. Maybe some clothes, shoes and books. Certainly they don't fit fancy cars, giant flat screen tv's, or king sized beds in there. It's just crazy to think that someones "closet" is the size of a room that would hold 8 people at the shelter. Crazy to think that people have such huge closets full of clothes they probably don't wear when people are in need of clothing.

It's just crazy. What a crazy city I live in. Tons of millionares. Tons of homeless.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Fainting

So on Saturday afternoon I stopped in at Superstore to buy a tub for Dad. It was about lunch time and usually I dread being there as it is so busy. But there was actually no line up in the self check out isle. Yippee! I ended up back there on Saturday night at about 9:30pm. The line up was crazy for the self check out. There was actually 2 line ups and I definitely picked the worst one. I kept having to kneel to the ground as to not get dizzy. By the time it was my turn to check out my hearing was going and I was getting pretty faint. I felt like I was going to pass out. After my transaction I sat on the next weigh scale which wasn't in use so I could rest. A lady came over and said I looked really pale and that she was worried about me. I told her about the low blood pressure and how I'd be fine, I just need to sit for a few minutes. It was nice that someone was actually concerned. And of course I felt fine after resting for a few minutes. So lesson learned, no more standing in long line ups!

This is just another reason why I should not go grocery shopping. Tis why I am in the midst of coming up with a grocery list for Dad...

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Whine-o

One of my least favorite things to do while pregnant is groceries. Since getting knocked up doing the groceries has been painful. And somehow it seems I've been having to do them with Stinx during the week days. How can this be? That just seems like a recipe for disaster. Pregnant woman with low blood pressure + 2 year old toddler + grocery shopping = unpredictable outcome.

We managed today though. We survived the trip without any tantrums or whining. Just Stinx running around crazily.

And now we have food. Life can continue.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Baby!

So yesterday afternoon I had a 12 week ultrasound. I finally got to see my baby! Yay! There really is a little baby in me!! This trimester has gone so fast and the only reminder that I have that I am pregnant is the nausea, which hasn't been so bad lately. It was so nice being able to see the baby. The tech showed me the baby's heart beating but I didn't get to actually hear it. And I could have sworn I felt a little flutter while she was doing the U/S. It's crazy to think there is a baby moving around in my body and I can't feel it. I suspect that I will start to feel this baby a little sooner than I noticed Stinx moving around. But yeah, it was wonderful seeing the baby moving around in there.

Now I can't wait to find out what I am having!! Only 6 or so more weeks until the next U/S.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Bum Genius Snap Conversion


It's only been about 10 months since I started using my Bum Genius 3.0 diapers and the Velcro/aplix tabs are starting to bug me. They still stick to the diaper and it functions fine, but I can't stand how the Velcro comes off the tab spot in the washing machine. When I pull them out of the washer they're all stuck on each other. I am starting to see why some people prefer snaps. So I decided to try getting a couple of them converted to snaps. Michelle from A Lovely Start offered to try this out for me. She converted two of the diapers. One in a single row of snaps that can be pulled over each other and the other diaper is a double row of snaps. I am very excited to try these out on Stinx and see how I like them. If I really like them I might consider converting the rest of the diapers. I'll let you know how it turns out.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Earth Mama Angel Baby


I'm not a tea person. Nor a coffee person. I prefer my beverages to be sweet and cold. Like apple juice. or Ice Tea. But I do have to say that the Earth Mama Angel Baby product "Morning Wellness Tea" is very good. When I do drink tea's it's usually the herbal fruity type. Once the morning sickness started people kept recommending Ginger tea. I tried it and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but still not something I enjoyed.

Then I came across the Morning Wellness Tea. It is good. REALLY good. The first ingredient in the list is ginger but I can't taste it. I can only taste the spearmint and peppermint. It's delicious.

And on another Earth Mama Angel Baby note, I love their Angel Baby Bottom Balm. It's a salve for your little baby's bum but made of all natural organic ingredients. And the best part, it's totally safe to use with cloth diapers! and smells delicious.

So basically, I love the Earth Mama Angel Baby products. They're amazing.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I'm Talented at Messy.

It's amazing how the quality of one's life goes down hill when one is pregnant. My poor family. The meals, oh they are sad, if they exist at all. The house is a disaster. It looks like a tornado has hit. Papers on the floor, dishes piled high, laudry waiting to be washed.

You know you are in a sad state when you truly feel you have accomplished something by a) doing half of the dishes and b) having a shower. Every day it seems I try to accomplish a few tasks. Sometimes it might be a load of laundry, other days it might be doing the groceries.

Things seem to be looking up though. The morning sickness seems to be fading. I have felt a little hungry lately which brings me great hope. I often wake up from the afternoon nap craving something to eat, or I wake up dreaming about food. My body is definitely telling me it is hungry. In the past 10 weeks I lost the weight I didn't want to lose. Seems with both pregnancies my body wants to lose weight in the first trimester. Well I am challenging that with Blizzards from dairy queen, Rice Pudding, and chocolate chip cookies.

As I start to feel better I hope to blog a bit more.

Cheerio.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Fetus Flu

So since I am "out" on facebook I may as well make it official on my blog. I have the fetus flu. Officially pregnant and with some yucky morning sickness to boot. I found out a month ago and thought things were going so smoothly... Well right at the 6 week mark the fetus flu started.

I seriously forgot how bad morning sickness is. My body tricked me into thinking it wasn't so bad. I guess that's how you convince yourself to have another baby.

With Stinx the morning sickness was crappy but I still worked through it. I think that might be the difference. With Stinx I was at work and had a lot of things to distract me from feeling crappy. I have memories of my off-time being miserable. I remember just laying on the couch, all the time, when not working. I lost 10 lbs in the first trimester because I was so nauseous. I totally lost my appetite.

That's basically how the last 2 weeks have been for me. I am surviving off the teeniest amounts of food. But I went to see my doctor and she gave me a prescription for Diclectin. I started taking it last night. I sure hope it will help. My poor family can't survive with me being like this.

But anyways, enough about feeling sick, Dad and I are very excited about baby #2! I still can hardly believe there is a tiny little baby growing inside of me. At the moment Baby is about 2 cm long. TINY! I'm around 8-9 weeks along.

And yeah this is also why my blogging has been sooo pathetic lately. Hopefully once I start feeling better I'll blog more.

Oh and my worst fear is pretty much true. My chance to use a midwife is SLIM. :( I am really disappointed. I was testing a week before my period was due and as soon as I got a positive test I called ALL the midwives in Calgary and they all told me I was about #20 on the wait lists. :( I feel really bummed and upset about it but am hoping and praying that a miracle can happen.

Well I'm off to do some diaper laundry.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Still here

We're still alive. Just haven't been finding the time to blog. We've been doing some neat stuff. I thought I'd share some pictures of our latest adventures.
We took Stinx to the Super Train show a couple weeks ago. It's a huge local model train show. Trains trains, everywhere! Stinx was in heaven.

We literally had to pry Stinx away from the Thomas the Train table. He left it kicking and screaming. He could have played quietly there all day.



We also met up with some friends at the nearest VV. Stinx attempted to skateboard.

And had fun climbing inbetween the clothesrack with his friend.

We also hung out at the science centre a few times. Stinx loves playing with the water station and usually leaves soaking wet.
On this past trip he had a blast playing the guitar.

We've been trying to get out a lot and enjoy the nice weather when its here.
Stinx at the park down the street from home.


Playing in the backyard.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

That Mom

A lovely surprise.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Bird Sanctuary

Yesterday morning Stinx and I went for a little walk at the bird sanctuary. I love that place. It is so peaceful and quiet. We didn't see any *amazing* birds but we did see some.. Mostly the generic birds local to our area aka: magpies, ducks and geese. I've had friends tell me they've seen beavers there but I have never been so lucky.

Stinx saw lots of gophers and desperately wanted to catch them. He wasn't quite quick enough.

They were just to darn fast. Stinx stood above their holes saying "catch".
We found two crazy large holes closer to the water. Stinx could probably crawl down them if he tried. Seriously, what the heck lives in there? The information centre was closed that day but I definitely plan on asking the staff next time. Badgers? Beavers? Fox?

Monday, April 13, 2009

Lessons from Easter

I learned two things this week end.

1. [revised] Pregnant women should not be left unattended in the presence of menopausal women. (This is not in reference to myself - I am neither menopausal or pregnant).

2. The perfect restaurant to take a toddler to is either A) so dead that you are the only patrons or B) so busy and loud that no one would notice your toddler having a tantrum. Thankfully while out for dinner with some family last night we had option A.


Thursday, April 9, 2009

Self Care

I finally treated myself to a massage. This morning I went for a relaxation massage at Prema Sai Prenatal. I even brought Stinx with me because they have child care. It was really awesome. The massage was great. Very relaxing. Then as I was getting ready to pay Stinx ran over to another baby, about 10 months old, and pushed her down.

Oh boy.

Seriosuly, Stinx, why ? why? I just don't get it. You are such a sweet boy... until you beat up other babies. And the lady babysitting you said you behaved well. That is until I walked in the room.

I just don't get it.

The massage therapist also told me that my left shoulder/arm/neck are very tense and strained. She reckons its due to carrying things on that side... Like a diaper bag perhaps? Maybe I will switch to a back pack. She said stretching will help. And yoga. And yeah. I do need to start going to the gym again. Perhaps I can take one of the yoga classes once a week. That's my goal.. Anyone want to hold me accountable to that?

Oh and I am soo sore now. Better get to bed.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Life is good.

I wish I had something to say. Seems I'm pretty speechless these days.

I'm happy the weather is lovely this week.

I'm happy that Anti-Kels and Unky Scott are in town.

I'm looking forward to work tomorrow.

I'm looking forward to going to the zoo tomorrow with friends.

All in all, life is good.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Tiny Friends

I think I may have unintentionally brought some friends home from work last night. And I'm not talking about clients. I'm talking bugs.
I'm probably just being paranoid. But I did hug quite a few people, more than usual, and when that happens, the possibility is there.

This happened once before when I was pregnant with Stinx. I kept finding tiny little things in my hair and my head was itchy. I remember it was a Saturday morning and I was so paranoid about it that I went to a walk in clinic. I got in to see the doctor very quickly (I only go as soon as the clinic opens). She was a very nice and polite doctor. She took a quick look at my head and made it very clear.... I was just a paranoid pregnant lady. No bugs. Only dandruff.

Last night I was working in a part of the shelter where I had worked for 4 years. It's the busiest part of the building. There were many people that recognized me and wanted to come say hello with a hug. Hence all the hugs. As I hugged each of my friends the thought of cross contamination did fly through my mind. To me it's worth the risk. And I'm not actually supposed to hug people so I try to just do the quick side hug. It's the full on hugs that are more risky. The hugs where your hair touches each others.

And this evening I have noticed my head is itchy. Hmmm. Am I just being paranoid? Probably.. I've been through this worry before. But I guess there's always a chance.

Wouldn't be my first time with bugs though. No sir-ee. Had them in the 4th grade as well as summer camp.


That's my street cred. I've had lice.

As I type this I am itching away.

Maybe I should get some lindane shampoo?

I just told Dad and he is freaking out. LOL.

I'm sure I am just paranoid.

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After doing some "googling" it seems I am just paranoid. It's just one of those things. - as soon as you think of lice, you just get itchy. But I am thinking of buying some Tea Tree Oil or Nix, just to have around in case I get overly paranoid. LOL.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Thrill of the Hunt Update

So I haven't really posted about my Thrill of the Hunt Challenge. I've been able to find a few things second hand. We did end up buying two twin captain's beds and mattresses secondhand. They weren't cheap but in really good condition and were pretty much exactly what I was looking for. I've been finding tons of great books second hand lately. Lots of kids books as well as parenting books. Just today I found a book that I have had on hold at the Library and it's in perfect shape. I paid $2.50 for it. I also found a really sweet set of glasses and a Pitcher at Good Will. As soon as I saw it, it reminded me of me, like 10 years ago.
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Right now I am starting to potty practice more often with Stinx and am desperately seeking two piece pj's for a 2 year old. His room is freezing cold and I usually put him in fleece sleepers as well as his sleep sack. But I find that the sleeper and sleep sack make it more difficult getting to the potty in the morning. Stinx just doesn't like having his sleep sack and pj's taken off. I figure if we switch to 2 peice pj's and a pair of socks it might help. It won't be so bad if I just pull his pants off. The sleep sack thing I might keep around till its a bit warmer out. Come the summer I want to wean Stinx off of it. I haven't had much luck with pj's at the thrift stores but I do have some leads from kijiji.
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I also want to find a tricycle. That could be a pretty fun summer activity.
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I can't wait for garage sale season :)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

My Baby


What happened to my baby? He isn't a baby anymore.

I was looking through these photographs that my friend Vicki took of Stinx, some at 4 months old and some just before he turned 1.


Man it sure makes me wonder where the time has gone. It really went too quickly.



I was at a friend's house yesterday and I just admired her little one year old. I really loved that age. I love 2 too, but in different ways. I love looking back at Stinx when he was 1. It was fun times.

I clearly have baby fever. I can't wait to have a tiny little baby again.


I've been thinking a lot about birth again. I want so badly to experience a vaginal birth but at the same time I don't want to become obsessed with it. If I obsess about having a natural vaginal birth and then really do need a c-birth, I don't want to feel like I "lost". I don't want to have a guilty feeling about it. Rather, I hope to have a VBAC and try everything I can to do so, but be at complete peace if a c-birth is needed, because, I will know I tried everything I could. And, yeah, I don't want to overhthink it.
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My main concern is getting a midwife. There is a major midwife shortage in my city. Midwifery is going to be covered 100% as of April... that's days away. I am worried I won't be able to get one. My homebirth friends have been telling me for ages, "As soon as you get a positive pregnancy test, you call the midwives!". I really hope I can squeeze my way in. I would feel much more confident trying for a VBAC under the supervision of midwives. I know I could do it with a doctor, but I am just not sure how much support I would receive. Anyways... I know it will all work out for the best. I know that God's will is all planned out and he truly looks out for me (and you) and wants the best for us. In the end I would really love to have another healthy little babe.
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Now whether or not Stinx is ready to share me with a brother or sister is a whole other question :)
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